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Life as a Psycho Part 3

  • Mar. 18th, 2008 at 3:36 PM

It's been almost 6 months since I joined the chalets. I must admit that I love it here. This is my 3rd Psych position, but its a refreshing change.

I have a quirky boss that walks up and say jokes like : 

"One day Chelsea Clinton was on a train and she met a soldier that had just returned from Iraq. She asked him: "what are some things soldiers are afriad of?" His reply : "3 things, 1) Osama, 2) Obama 3) Your Mama" 

My boss would smile and walk away. Well pp find him odd, but i think it's his way of connecting with the staff.  I have no complaints.
The Drs are sometimes quite tight arse, that said, there is a good handful of nice ones.

It's been a steep learning curve. Do check out the papers as they will be doing a write up on EMDR : Eye Movement Desensitisation and Reprocessing. It's darn cool, cause i had my traumas in life reprocessed just having fingers wagging within my bilateral visual field. I can't wait to try it out on my patients. 

It's been enriching. I suppose it's the first time that i enjoy work. Best part: I am not desk bound. Only on Tuesdays where i seat around abit more. Otherwise, I am around Sg visiting patients. It sounds weird, but i find it a challenge working with patients who are halluncinating.   

Work has been happening and happier. It's unlike me to only dread going to work less than 5 times (over estimate) this year due to fatigue. 

Hmm... I hesitate taking leave cause I just wanna see patients in my clinics.
I hope that this enthusiasm is sustained. Life's great! 




Chapter Closed

  • Oct. 5th, 2007 at 11:12 AM

As I was walking home after my moonlighting activities, I reflected on what I would miss most from Metta, I realised it would be the innocence of the kids. I will miss my "best friend" greetings from Mason, with him sneaking a hug from the side. I believed that this was reflected in one of my blogs that it is no longer possible to find another place that has such pure innocence in our construed world. 

The colleagues has been great, importantly, the kids here has been real funny and fun to work with. They make me feel like I am a kid always. After 7 years of being in different school settings, though this stint here has been short, but it is an appropriate time to bid farewell to sped ed and schools as my professional learning has been downhill. 

With all my little bits and pieces left on my workstation and drawers emptied,  ambivalence overwhelmed me. I will no longer be a forgiving environment, yet I know it's more learning and challenges to come. As I am penning this blog, a couple of colleagues came and bid farewell. How sad to say bye bye to these colleagues. 

What's to come next are ........psycho adults! They ain't as cute as kids, but it will be challenging. What I like best about the new job is the fact that I AM OUT OF THE SOCIAL SERVICE SECTOR FINALLY AFTER 7 YEARS!!!! 
What is scary about it at the "Buangkok Chalets" as some of my current colleagues put it is working with 18 other Psychologists and countless Psychiatrists! I feel watched! 

It's really a year of changes, it's been more than swell. 

  
    

Children's Day

  • Sep. 28th, 2007 at 5:06 PM

My colleagues and I sang Rasa Sayang and I was Working on the Railroad as an opening act for Children's Day celebration. 

And an hour before the concert, I was asked to sing  Cake's " I WIll Survive"! I survived my own singing! It was my awful rendition. I missed many lines, and screeched! 
Worse, plwh888 was there. Embarrassed!

Anyhow, it's my 1 min of fame on my second last week of work. My colleague commented, "Jean it's good that you do something before u leave. " Yes i have not been doing anything.

Yes, just counting down the days before i embark on my new journey.  

 

Italy & Me

  • Sep. 24th, 2007 at 8:54 AM

On the first day, my luggage was left behind at Dubai Airport, but I was impressed with Emirates for informing me once i got off the plane. My first day in Rome was spent with the bare minimum of my lonely planet, camera and cash. 
Out of the many places that I visited, I loved Rome most  for its grandiose architecture and rich history. 

Next, on my list is Florence. Although I studied its history 10 years ago, nothing beats viewing it personally. All the medieval, renassiance, gothic buildings and art  came alive! It was interesting to know that many English phrases originated from Latin.  

Next, after personally viewing Michaeangelo's David, I now know what made this man the most reputable sculptor. Although the admission to the Academy costs 13 Eur, it was well  worthed to take a peek at his sculptures. He was brilliant. I was so inspired by Michaelangelo that i took the trouble of rushing down to Santa Croce to have a look at his tomb, and even told him what a great man he was. The next sculptor I loved was Bernini. His wonderul sculptures especially  the one of David before he was going to strike Goliath with his catapult at Borghese Musuem. It was BRILLIANT! 

The Tuscan Hills of Siena and San Gimigniano were absolutely stunning. I took many piccies of it. Again what I liked was the medieval style of architecture and it's churches.

Within the countless pretty churches, many wealthy families were buried in the church. These rich family had their frescoes painted on the ceilings of the church. The art history of all the frescoes were stunning. It was amazing how the rich in the past would pay artists, to paint their family members associated with the saints that lived many years before them. They were the 'stinking rich' when the churches they were buried in were flooded. 

Besides museums, churches and architecture, I loved the morning's chill breeze of the tuscan hills and the smell of freshly baked bread and coffee brews from the little alleys of Venice.

All the cities that I visited had heaps of tourists, but the worse had to be Venice. I did not  like Venice. Venice had the most tourists, pigeons and murano shops. Everything was costly and overhyped. 

Lastly, how can one not shop in Italy, I made 4 costly buys. Prada was indeed very cheap. The current models in Singapore were going for 50% less. And Tod's shoes were 40 - 70% less. 

Oh, as for Italian men, I hardly spotted any and those I saw were disappointing. Overall, it's well worthed the trip, but extremely costly.  

The pictures will come up soon! A grand total of 1000.

I Love Borghese!

  • Sep. 11th, 2007 at 8:30 PM

I love Bernini & Carvaggio! They are absolutely brilliant!

I love Museums. 
Rome is too touristy, but the architecture is gorgeous!

While Waiting

  • Sep. 9th, 2007 at 11:43 PM

It's a somewhat good Sunday. I was glad to have spitspatspot & starbuckstoner coming for the run with the usual 3. It's a refreshing change. Good to have you gals around at 6 in the morning!

Besides my mad rush to pack, clean my room, finish my last minute chores, attending Mass and dinner at Hua Ting to celebrate Tian's 3rd BD, I received news that my colleague's husband passed away suddenly whilst holidaying with her in KL.

After 5 weddings, came 3 funerals. Somehow my experience with funerals, it never happens as a standalone event. 
It takes 3 to complete the cycle. I really hope that this would mark the end of the unhappy events.

And this is my first ever holiday not having to worry about work nor school no more! YAHOOO!!!!!

Ok time to walk walk.

Desperate GFs

  • Sep. 5th, 2007 at 9:46 AM

Besides having requests to collect holy water for some of my catholic friends, a good number of gfs requested me to do the following:

kiss an extra italian man for me!,
find and italian man for me!,
don't pinch his bum,
fark an italian man for me!

Can't Wait!

Saying Goodbye

  • Aug. 23rd, 2007 at 4:30 PM

I never like goodbyes, not the one today as well.
I'm sorry.
It's my ticket out.
I will miss many things.
I feel awful. I was so nervy before I spoke to him, being all wise, he took the news calmly and wished me the best of luck.

On the bright side, it means new opportunities.
I need to get out and get over it soon.
It's all so awkward now.
Sigh.

THE WAIT IS OVER

  • Aug. 21st, 2007 at 2:24 PM

I had a horrible day yesterday when the Uni i was with informed me that they lost my dissertation. I went home sobbing and binged ate.
I wrote multiple emails to my supervisor and threathened to file letters of complaint with the graduate office.

This afternoon i received an email from my supervisor asking me to call the office. Yes they lost 1 of 2 copies of my dissertation, but the result slip miraculously appeared. Fishy eh...

Anyways, I graduated with minor amendments. I thank God for seeing me through and now it's a new phase of my life. Just short of printing my signature on the contract.

I feel liberated. Now i am a full fledge member. I am so looking forward to September for my long awaited holiday.

Still Counting

  • Aug. 17th, 2007 at 9:07 AM

I reckon the events in my life for the past 4 weeks are similar to the sentiments of the current stock market. It went on a euphoria, with 5 weddings and it sky dived when my maternal uncle was B.I.D (Brought In Dead) to NUH yesterday evening.

It started off with my baby nephew passing on at 2 months old in 2005, in 2006 my 25 year old cousin, now my 54 year old uncle. I hope it will skip 2008 to break the chain.

I cancelled my moonlighting activities to accompany my mum to the BID room. Before meeting up with my family, my sis and I were chatting, she asked if i was ready to meet God, in a gung ho manner I replied yes, but I would tell God he did not make rich. My sister retorted saying "you can't bring the money with you what!"

Before I met my folks, a thought hit me that God waits for no one. I regretted not saying my rosary in the morning, thinking that it could be delay it till the end of the day.

While my mum, sis and me were on the way there, I commented "it's good training huh, so the next time we know what to do." Naturally, I received glares in return.

I knew that God was with me throughout the process as everything worked out in the most perfect fashion. My mum and me convinced my auntie and cousins to have proper rites for my late uncle which they were adamant as they wanted to adhere to my uncle's last wishes. I took on the responsibility of arranging for the undertaker and the frills. (it's the matriarchal blood in the family)

This morning at 6am, my bro and I had a chat, he reiterated the importance of family. Ever since the King of Binjai came along, the family has been tight knitted, open in sharing and communicative.

In retrospect, God has given me more than wealth. He has blessed with me many trials that I gained good insight and wisdom. Next, he gave me a wonderful family and the best mates. The cost? Priceless.....

Counting my blessings.

Lessons from Mickey Mouse

  • Aug. 6th, 2007 at 1:20 PM

My weekend was packed packed with weddings, bbqs and over feasting but the highlight was the singing of my 3 year old nephew, who learnt this from Mickey Mouse:

"SHAKE YOUR PEANUTS!"

Smile :)

  • Jul. 31st, 2007 at 4:20 PM

I think 99% of the people would describe me as cheerful (I am si3 bu4, yao4 lian3). I reckon for the past 4 months I smiled alot more cause of M (thanks and though u will never read this but you have been an asset).

Earlier this year, a student of mine N's (12 years old, ASD) house broke into flames. When he returned to school all he could described was "no shoes, my shoes got burnt" and "my computer no more, the monitor melted." It was not traumatising for him cause being autistic, he perceives and speaks in a matter of fact manner.

Today, N walked pass my cubicle, smiling and waving at me. He is perpetually in smiles, extremely adorable. I stopped him and said "N you know smiling is contagious, keep those smiles." He replied, "thank you Ms Jean."

It's a pointless entry, but stop and smile. I think tt's the second best gift anyone can give. Start and end ur day with a smile, it's free!

In 10 minutes

  • Jul. 31st, 2007 at 1:20 PM

My afternoon can't get any better than this. First, I had to run after my little (no longer) ADHD 10 year old girl whose psyciatrist changed her drugs. KABOOM! She has been uncontrollable for the past week. I somehow suspect it's the manifestation of early psychosis. Her barrage of emotions and the inability to self regulate was telling. Real ufortunate, it's hereditary. After 6 floors of chasing, I found her seated by the lift, crying. Next minute, she went into a rage and ran into the toilet for solace.

In the midst of my game of cat and mouse, I saw an 18 year old student masturbating rite before my eyes. Yes, along the corridor, not full monty, but he was in the thick of action. I shouted " XXX what are you doing?" He walked back into his classroom. Naturally I told his teacher and I sent him to the toilet to wash his hands. After he came out, I said to him "it's ok if you wanna do it, but in the toilet the next time please."

All in 10 mins.

Aftermath on MSN...
Lawrence says:
well u need closure...u cant avoid him forever..just b sure not to shake his hands

Simpsons....

  • Jul. 26th, 2007 at 10:21 AM

Only read on if you do not want spoilers.

It's been a long wait for the movie, since Jan last year for me. It's finally out. Hmm was it worth all the hype, I suppose it was pretty decent except there was an irritating fellow who laughed at all the unfunny bits sitted behind me. What was disappointing was people laughed at DUH bits of the show, which totally spoilt it for me.

My take on the movie, go watch it (it's a bias comment cause I am a Simpsons fan) The story line was so-so. It was a witty movie with good catch phrases. It kept to the original Simpsons cartoon feel which was good. The most classic scene for me was the Dare between Homer and Bart. The characters were who they were, however what suprised me was how receptive Bart was towards the Flanders (which is so impossible). Hmm I shall attribute it to maturity.

What I was disppointed with :
Itchy and Scratchy, not gory as it use to, and too little on them
Homer actaully had an epiphany, which is impossible. His brain is made of up 1/3 beer, 1/3 donuts, 1/3 sex. (Based on the first Simpsons book 14 years ago, Matt Groening should have kept to that)
Too little Duff beer, Homer did not visit Moe's.
Not enuff Krusty.

Oh well hope i did not spoil the movie, otherwise a good watch. Pray hard that you won't have annoying people who laughed at everything sitted around you.

Re: The Green Coffee Joint

  • Jul. 20th, 2007 at 11:49 AM

Cali Orchard sort of lost a bit of it's personality since Bucks closed.
I don't know but it's like a piece of clothing. Incomplete, naked perhaps.
Hopefully the organic cafe will be able to colour Cali. However, Organic cafes are just too earthy.....

Mommy & My Morning

  • Jul. 20th, 2007 at 9:20 AM

I had a fruitful evening and a good morning.
It's a happy morning until I opened my email. ARGH I HATE NIE (GPR)

Happy thoughts!
It started out great! I had a good morning run. It's a happy day cause my family is looking forward to the wedding tonight. My 3rd wedding in 2 weeks. 3 more to come in the next 2 weeks. I love weddings.

It's been a year since my cousin's passing. In retrospect it was her passing that brought the extended family closer. Somehow, Karen is still very much missed by all I am sure.

Last nite before I slept, I received a very sweet sms. It's days like that I am affirmed by Him that I am doing the right thing. However the highlight has to be my mom's.

She walked into my room last nite with a pair of white pants. "I don't know what to wear tomorrow! How's this one?" I replied "good mom, pretty, turn around, you lost weight so you look slim." Next second, she walked in with a green blouse. "Can it match my pants?" I replied " yes very pretty."
After I switched off my lights, she entered the room again, "help me stick 'koyok', aiya you asleep already nevermind." (I was thinking, you know my lights were off, and you came in despite of that) Me being the good daughter I took sometime off my beauty sleep to help her.

This morning at 8am, her hair was all done up for the tea ceremony scheduled at 11am. While I was busy popping my pills before work, she lifted her pair of shoes and asked, "can this pair of shoes match my outfit?" I replied, " yes." She replied,"but it's a different shade of green." My retort " your son getting married today is it?" In return, a sheepish grin from my mommy. How can I not love her?

" I wish you all friend me"

  • Jul. 13th, 2007 at 1:51 PM

As one of my colleague puts it, we laugh at the expense of their sorrows. I beg to differ, it's because their innocence is genuine and it's misplaced in our highly constructed world.

Anyway, today is YA's 17th birthday. She had a cake cutting celebration. After the birthday lalala, very SOLEMNLY, she closed her eyes, with hands clasped, she made her birthday wish. Upon opening her eyes, her teachers asked what she wished for? Her reply "I wish you all friend me."
Pengsan......

Potter Blues

  • Jul. 13th, 2007 at 11:18 AM

Potter was disappointing. The plot was decent, however the characters lacked depth and colour. Bland.

Hug the Tree

  • Jul. 11th, 2007 at 3:22 PM

Wednesdays are my duty days. Duty means to ensure that the safety of the students and other living things in the school are safe during recess. Today a little cute cheeky 9 year old boy was happily pulling the leaves of a recently planted young tree. With him being oblivious to my watching, he continued with the second leaf. Before he could reach for his 3rd, I walked up to him. Guess what i made him do? I made him apologize to the tree and had him provide TLC by hugging it.

Transitions........

  • Jul. 10th, 2007 at 12:10 PM

It's time to do a stock take for the year and what's to come.

I am thankful for the surge in my prayer life.
I have been clocking milege.
I completed my paper.
My Indian holiday. Piccies will be up I hope! I procrastinated.
Found my space of re-enchantment.
Lost in a world of books.

My head is spinning. Changes and more changes. Everything seems to be in a limbo except my impending trip in exactly 2 months and my house move in exactly 2 and a half months time. I need to plan my itinerary and I need a design (colour scheme, layout, theme) for my new room!

Decisions, decisions, in all aspects of my life.
Can HE, they, him, her just answer me to relieve this feeling of limbo?